I have realized a bunch of things over the last week.
#1 - I just do not have the time to update a blog on a daily basis. Even though Kian is away right now and in theory I should have all the time in the world, I just don't. Period. Being in school means that the majority of my evenings are spent studying, or working on assignments and the ones that I don't work on schoolwork, I spend watching movies or TV curled up with my husband - you know, the guy I've been neglecting for the last two months.
#2 - So far, in addition to being a terrible blogger, I am a terrible dieter. I continue to cheat daily, and I don't seem to feel a lot of remorse for it. Although I'd say my diet has done a huge 180 in the last two weeks, this is just because I've eliminated the sugar binges, not because I've eliminated sugar altogether. I am still craving sugar here and there and find myself having a bite of this, a pinch of that. I even had a terrible Wendy's incident on the weekend which involved a grilled chicken burger (no fries) and an iced-tea.
#3 - I have still not even done one iota of exercise over the last week - not one. Unless you count carrying Aila around - should that count?
However, despite numbers 2 and 3 today when I stepped on the scale, I was down 2lbs, and I suspect this is a true 2lb loss since it's been like this since about the middle of last week. Not a huge loss, but it's only been one week really, and given that I don't have a ton to lose, it's pretty good. I know it seems unreal, but today my jeans felt just the tiniest bit looser as did my raincoat. Just a teeny tiny bit, but it's moving in the right direction.
Alex assures me that I don't need to diet, I just need to find time to fit in more exercise and I need to stop the sugar binges, which I am. So far, it seems like he's right.
In any case, I am still trying to eat as "clean" as possible, and still have daily exercise as my ideal - I just can't seem to bring myself to put in the videotape, nor can I bring myself to go out for a run, or to a class. There's always laundry to do, dishes to clean, toys to put away or blogs to write.
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Today's intake:
Breakfast: Bowl of cereal with milk - 1/2 multigrain cheerios, 1/2 Kashi-go-lean crunch
Snack: 6 pieces of cut up fruit that my daughter didn't eat at her snacktime
Lunch: Piece of grilled chicken and a plate full of steamed veggies (carrots, celery, broccoli, onions and baby potatoes)
I was looking at your before photos earlier and thinking how pretty you are. I think when you're kids are older and see those photos, they won't think "Gee, my mother was 10lb heavier after she had us," they'll think "Wow, my mom was beautiful!"
ReplyDeleteI know for me, exercise does make me feel happier. But the only way I find the time is by prepaying for a class 2 minutes from home that takes place just after the kids go down (or close to it, anyway). The fact that I've prepaid guilts me into going but afterwards I always feel great. Otherwise I can always find an excuse.